.abomination.that.is.time.

so I've been neglecting adding my thoughts here on any regular basis what so ever.. anyways.. your dose of perception for toay...

T0DaY5 T0pIc of cancer:
"We are all Time Travellers"

As my close friend always reminds me, there is no single moment in our existance that has us stand still. We are constantly in motion, moving forward at a rate that shudders with unstoppable conundrums.. we cannot avoid this pattern. it is build into our systems of birth, decay, rebirth.. the wheel turns.

If it wasn't for my this terrible addiction to oxygen/nitrogen, that I have.. I would have passed onto more interesting pastures..

regardless, time forms in expectant bubbles around us.. its important to be aware of this.. there is a point where a decision is made and time leads us to the probable conclusion.. its easier to view in smaller bits, such as reaching out to take a sip of coffee..

but eventually you can preceive fully the outcome of a series of events.. and there is no such thing as destiny as simple as it being written down on a yellow sticky -  [although, I'm pretty convinced, I only get a footnote or two in the thesis of life]

- its important to know that all actions have meaning .. even if we cannot see them.. one kindness today, turns a new one tomorrow.. a few moments of help by many, creates a smaller amount of work for another single person..

every loss deminishes us, because, as we travel in our tribes, that loss creates one less set of opportunites for us to all share in the work.

I'm not a big fan of a institutional white Utopia  [ unless you really feel better being an AlphaBatchMale and trust in the fact that like Jesus, Big Brother Saves... then the New World Order Awaits you... ]
but if all ppl are going to get onto the same page and create a world worth living in, its going to take a long time for everyone to shed their prejudices instead of blood.

so small things like understanding life systems, language, communication, time cycles, psychology, metaphysics, and culture will help us better understand that our place in the universe is in fact to always be asking questions and expecting the universe to give up more.

anyways.. enough ranting for one late nite..
cheers
+subtransient.laine+

- ephinany -

(find quote:) They say that a person should be judged by the sum of their being.  A noble tenet we should perhaps all be striving to achieve.

Yet humans do not work this way.  We see the shell, the exterior, and seldom  look beyond or deeper [ maybe we are awakening to this more and more, but its a terribly slow process ] .. the way that our limited senses must interact perhaps.  You can tell ones standing by their shoes, the cut of their clothes, their hair,the car tehy drive (or don't); all their life laid out in a few obvious seconds.

You wonder if this is some ancient instinct, something mamalian about recognizing a healthy mate or if its some derivitive of need mass produced through the media into our subconscience.

Regardless of the reasoning, in North America we see the exterior before we can precieve the being.

+laine+

: prelude.nocturna :

dark moods mostly.. we come from various places..

For those that don't know me here.. you'll learn.. really.. I'm special, I'm not special.. I promise to explain my freakishly charming self later on.. this blog isn't about me.. its about experiences and others I have encountered.

I have excerpts from my writing and I will add examples as I compile them and meet more people.

those of you that post will obviously get to add your perspectives.. please do..

this is about people, who we are, who we really are.. our jobs do not define us.. they do not make us rock stars or super models.. but somewhere in the middle of all of this we have things in us, things we cannot express easily or are too afraid or insecure to accomplish..
we cannot sing for a living becuase you have bills to pay.. we cannot be the spirit we are, in the body we are... or rather it feels that way in the physical world..

_________________________ ______
.chapter.one. a.generation.no.where.

: premise :

the people I have met my whole life have yet to be employed properly.. mostly I've focused on those that are not in the working field they are trained for..
muliple phd's and working in a call center..
bachlor degrees and trapped in retail...
the list goes on..

this is my personal journey and study..

we are all working tribes and living tribes
of families and enemies..

our status is useless.. our abilities over looked..
our monetary situations are fruitless..
I write this heavily in debt, making my way
where we are all down to nine and fives..
or eleven to sevens.. the world is different in the underbelly of 4 am.. the sky is different, the mood is different..

days and nites mostly bleed together into a pointless blur of rushed life..

and leave us lost with little to comprehend..

we are a working generation, one of conflictin cultures and expectations.. places our parents did not grow up and do not get to experience or understand.. commericialism has never been such a strong yet easily identified enemy to us all.. we have no direction and want none.. we have war that all though is close on the radio, tele, and net... but is very removed from our lives..

... we are a generation that is no where.

Sorry for the delay kidz..

I'll be up and running in a bit...

in the mean time you can view my personal blog at

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this is a new project I am starting.. sorry if you missed out today..

I'll try and have more very soon

+laine+